or at least someone who looks like me is.
1) i wish i could put my brain on a vacay. sick of analyzing. sick of worrying. sick of feeling irritated. sick of wondering what the point is.
2) i'm turning 30 in less than a month. we have no kids. we have no house. i have no real job. i feel pointless. but i do not miss my "real job" that i "went to school to do". i want to do something creative. i don't know how to get started. who hires a teacher to do anything else?
3) i feel like if i can't have a baby, then i should have a rockin' hot body. i have neither. and i'm not motivated to try very hard for either one. what is wrong with me? poor anj.
4) way too many people get on my damn nerves. especially other people's kids. why is that? am i subconsciously jealous of them? bitter over my own circumstances? or is it simply that they are just fucking annoying?
5) i used to love this blog. now it feels like it just sits here staring at me like, "are you gonna write some shit? post some pictures? no? well then, what the hell are you doing?"
i just don't feel like me.
cuss me if you want, but i swear, boys have some things easier because their hormones don't fluctuate all over the damn place.
and this is the end of my eeyore post that i only wrote because my blog is nagging me to post something.