01 August 2012

if you knew me


first of all, my day started with two three four things that are awesome:
1) i didn't get up any last night with low blood sugar.
2) the song in my head when i woke up was "today was a good day" by ice cube.
3) i had a voice mail from the dentist. called back. they wanna send me a $45 check.
4) my blood sugar was 107 when i got up, and according to my sensor, it had stayed stable all night.

not sure who started these "if you knew me" posts, but i've seen them at casey's and drazil's.
i love posts like this because you can learn more about people, and because y'all know i have a thing for lists.

here we go ...

if you knew me, you would know that i am so grateful for this blog and my camera because they bring me tons of joy and make me feel like "me", which i think i may have lost there for a hot minute. having my camera has helped me to see the beauty in the things of everyday, and what a great artist God is.

if you knew me, you would know that i have been diabetic since october of '88. I was 5 years old.

if you knew me, you would know that in the last say 5 years or so, i cannot attend a full church service without crying. i cry a lot about non-sad things, such as when the US gymnastics team won gold. totally cried.

if you knew me, you would know that i sometimes feel paranoid because i don't understand why God gave me & anj something so magical. i think some people go through their whole life and never find true, true love and it breaks my heart.

if you knew me, you would know that i hate the sweet, goopy part that everyone else seems to love. i spread jelly very, very thinly on toast. i barely drizzle pancake syrup. i like jelly donuts, but squeeze most of the jelly out. i do not like the white part of oreos.


 if you knew me, you would know that i feel freaked out everyday because i'm not sure i'm doing what i'm "supposed to do" with my life, or anything in it.

if you knew me, you would know that i made it to the county spelling bee in elementary school, and that one of the words was "endurance" which i would have spelled "indurance" if i hadn't seen a video about it that morning in pe. also, another word was "colonel". i got it right, but i kicked myself because i didn't first ask if they wanted "kernel" or "colonel". risky.

if you knew me, you would know that i went by my first name for the first and last time in my life in the town we lived in when i was in 9th grade. it drove me nuts that they pronounced my name "bay-eth" for one, and for another, i figured, "hell, why not?"

if you knew me, you would know that in 5th grade, i just knew i was going to be a fashion designer when i grew up. i had an entire box of index cards with outfits that i'd created drawn on them, and i wore shit like this to school:

if you knew me, you would know that also when i was in 5th grade (busy year for me), i passed out from low blood sugar after field day, and my mom came to school to pick me up. she was on the way to raleigh to pick up money that she'd won from being the correct caller to a radio station.

if you knew me, you would know that i absolutely cannot handle the feel of peach skin on my teeth. the fuzziness? no. just the thought of it makes my teeth hurt.


if you knew me, you would know that when i was about 7 and my brother was about 2, he jumped into the deep end of a friend's pool. i jumped in to save him and i remember what his face looked like under the water and it scared the shit out of me. he can swim now. :)

if you knew me, you would know that i dream every night for what seems like all night long. often those dreams are about junking, thrift stores, flea markets, and old vintage goodies.

if you knew me, you would know that despite my love of the pontoon song, and the fact that we used to live on the lake, i absolutely do not actually love lake water due to the potential presence of snakes. however, i have not always been this way. in 9th grade, when we lived on the lake, i would notice a little snake head popped up in the water under the pier, and i would just swim out away from it. now, that would probably give me a heart attack while in the water. i will get in lake water if it's out in the middle of the water, there are other people splashing around nearby, if i have a float, or to get in long enough to pee, and get back on the boat.

if you knew me, you would know that i am in love with rap music, mostly old school, and that i have a bomb ass black biggie tshirt. {black tshirt, duh, i think we all know biggie's black.}

if you really knew me, you would know that those are indeed my feet in the header, and those boots are possibly my most favorite thing in my closet. that and the purse hubs gave me for my birthday last year.


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